Jason chew, denise lee, jansen chew! :)

:)

I BROUGHT THIS UP UPON MYSELF, I DONT WANT TO TEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IVE BEEN CONTROLLING IT SINCE MORNING.
BUT, I FAILED.


FUCK LIFE NOW! I WANT TO ISOLATE MYSELF TO PREVENT BAD LUCKS COMING TO YOU...

AND I SO WANT YOU TO BE FINE. WE, TO BE FINE.

It was so heart-wrenching..

So just yesterday was a sad day. I really dread thursday to arrive.
Every thursday caused me to break down.
I wish to have 48 hours in a day, really. Cos' there are so many things i want to do..
But when? How? Why?
I felt guilty when i nearly got knocked down by a cab just yesterday.
Due to my negligence, i didn't look out for cars.
Speaking of safetyness, i always remember my dad who constantly reminded me to be careful whenever am out. "Always look out for cars, don't rush.." This sentence has been in my mind but not yesterday. Am sorry but i will remember that by hook or by crook. I promised. And i'm sorry.. Am really am.
There are so many things not accomplished, not done, not enjoy.
I was helpless. Thursday kills.


Hey can you hear them?
And yea, i know that honeymoon period has ended, the toughest have yet to come.
Such trivial matter has caused everything to change. Wow am so amazed.

I hope everything will be fine soon..


LIFE STILL HAS TO GO ON RIGHT?

Happy 1st month and counting!! :)

If one day, school were to be crashed or burned..(but without me being in the school)
okay i mean seriously GONE. I'd be ultra X man happy!! :)

Every morning i wake up and thought to myself..why so tired.
Then whatever programme i have later after school, i would wish to cancel it and just sleep.
Somehow after i bathe, i don't have that feeling :X
I woke up this morning, dashed out of house and i managed to reach school on time.
Punctually!! :) I was the only one who has reached, okay la in my clique.
After school, met up with bii and went his place. We caught hangover! :)
Then bus back to school. Met mommy at TTSH, she said she'll bring me to make my specs but it closes so early :( Well its okay ah cos if today can't make it, other day. It's all fated? :)
I have been wondering and i think i have been spending more time in school than home!
Why is this so? Argghh~

Anyway i always tell myself to lose weight..
I must eat less. Stop looking at food. Stop buying.
But i can't.. How sad! Growing horizontally but not vertically. Horrible!! :(
And i still want to say this.. "i must lose weight!!"

KEKEKE!!

Oh ya, speaking about kekeke.
i was talking to suen about me typing this "kekekeke" looked so gay.
She said, she thinks "gagagaga" sounded more gay. HAHAHAH funny isnt it?
Am still contemplating whether to go gym tomorrow? Hmmm..
I would be tired, furthermore, am gonna have friendly in school tmr.
One word: fatigue.



I love you more than anyone else do.